A Step Back

My latest CK was better, but I've developed RLS and a virus. Research on the RLS led me to understand that my vegan diet was causing the problem....that plus worse insomnia and irritability. I was not taking enough quality supplements so not getting enough iron, B vitamins or vitamin E.

I started eating meat again, then told my MD doctor. He told me to stay on meat for 2 weeks, then try veganism again for 2 weeks. If I started having problems again, I have to keep eating meat. He was concerned for my spiritual welfare, but I told him I am willing to eat a cow if I have to choose between that and death. I just eat it responsibly.

I'm going through a big life change...55 years old and time to make a career change. I think that's the reason for the virus. Chemotherapy lowers my immune system but I can keep it under control as long as I control the stress. My doctor said, "Work doesn't stress you out, but stress stresses you out." I think he meant allowing myself to be in situations I don't like.

I am not a people person and lately have surrounded myself with people in order to work with a cause I believe in. I am realizing that I have to find other ways to care for the cause. This self-sacrifice is not helping me or the cause. That, I think, is the real stumbling block to getting completely well.

Almost there

I am almost well. What have I been doing since I last posted? Throwing myself into life. Staying busy. Not giving myself time to feel pain. I've also started on some new homeopathic remedies, the Einstein Energy Diet, meditation and yoga, but the main thing is just living. I run an animal sanctuary and am letting myself feel all the emotions and do all the work necessary to keep up.